Its been fooorever since i've rambled my life away on such things and since i cant sleeeep, here goes lol
Tonight we decided to go to the P7 missionary fireside and i'm sooo glad we did because...it was such a spiritual experience for me and i'm pretty sure for everyone present. The fireside was divided into three workshops; One with God, One with our fellowmen, and One with Ourselves. I learned so much in each workshop;
One with ourselves;
we did a personal survey about ourselves where we had to rate our individual progression. This made me realize that i have sooo much to work on, not that i didnt know this but, it was good to know specifics or areas that i really did need to work on. For example, my points was super low on patience among other things lol and it was good to know that even people in the stake presidency are also struggling just as much as I am, it gives me comfort to know that i am not alone in this struggle.
One with our Fellowmen;
we talked about serving our fellowmen. While i was sitting there listening to Pua talk about this, a scripture came to mind. I forgot what scripture reference it is from but i know its a scripture mastery, it goes: "IF ye have done it unto one of the least my brethren, ye have done it unto me." So powerful were these words in my mind. I wanted to share this with the class as i was prompted too but i guess i feared man more than God. A weakness of mine that i truly NEED to overcome. Anyway, it was weird because i've come across this scripture sooo many times but somehow at this moment i understood what it actually meant. It really changed my perspective on how i should treat my fellow brothers and sisters as they are also "a child of God". Was really a wonderful testament and feeling that i need to serve serve serve my fellowmen more than myself to be truly happy. :)
One with God;
There was an activity that made me sooo shame cause it totally put me on blast lol but i could also view that as a challenge lol anyway, there was a question that was proposed to us in the beginning of this workshop and it was "What is your life purpose?" People answered; to be happy, to serve others, to become like Heavenly Father. It was like automatic for them...and i couldnt eeeven think of one answer kaloz...but as i heard all these answers i was thinking,...are these my life purposes? Do i wake up every morning with these goals in mind? It became clear to me that i did not know my life purpose and its NO wonder i was so lost because i've been planning my life without a purpose and therefore jus going in circles. Reality check for me! But I do believe that if i wake up every morning and throughout the day remind myself what my purpose in life is, decision making won't be as tough...hmmm well at least i think so lol
anywayz, today was a pretty awesome Sunday...i LOVE going to church (but i need to make a better effort on the being ON TIME bit lol), but i really love how every time i go, the message i hear or feel is specifically for me and is just what i NEED to hear to keep me going. :) But yay on a random note: tomoro i get to see bishop and hopefully it will be the last interview i have with him before i go see the stake president for my Patriarchal Blessing. I'm soooo excited for that, i really cant wait to see the plan Heavenly father has for me, how cool is that?! a personal letter from Heavenly Father to me :) anywayz, dddddooont explain it!!! lol...ok i can! good night :)
